February 24th, 2010 - .....

She was looking for happiness. And she deserved it. She was hoping that he will make her happy. She has given up her school, even though her education meant nothing in her country at the time, and her family to start a life with someone 14 years older than her. But what she was about to face, she never expected. The man she married, was someone who was mentally very ill, because of what has happened to him since childhood. And he was going to bring out all the anger that he held in himself since he was a child on her. He did not trust anyone. Even himself. Let alone trust her. The biggenings were harsh. She was at home alone. She couldn't contact anyone without permission. And when he would return from work he would beat her up. Every night it was a different excuses. If she would open the door too late on him, he would beat her up because he would be suspiciouse on what she was doing that took her too long to open the door. And if she opened the door early, he would ask her if she was waiting for someone that she opened the door too quickly and he would beat her up again. If the food was too salty, he would beat her. If it had no salt, he would beat her. If she slept too much he would beat her. If she slept too little he would beat her. The house must have been clean all the time. A single dust seen on anywhere, even a power plug, would end up in her bieng beaten. All this... and he always said he loved her. He loved her but he neated her everyday. Maybe he just didnt know how to love....

February 23rd, 2010 - the biggening...

This story begins in the 1985, in Tehran, Iran. A land where no woman could make a decision of her own, and men could do anything that they wished. She was 16 years old, and she had her whole future ahead of her. She has yet to finish high school, and in her mind, she was inlove with someone that no one else knew about. Her parents were getting a divorce and it was very difficult for her mother to take care of her. And then came a man. He was 30, and has already been married 3 times before, all which has ended in a divorce due to his bad habits and personality. He was educated in the USA, at the University of California, with an Engineering Degree. Infact, his first wife was from America. They stayed together for two years, until he decided to return to Iran and help with the revolution. He married two more times in his own country but they only lasted for 6 months. Now he was at door of this girl, asking fr her hand in marriage. In his eyes, and his mother's eyes, she was beautiful, younge and naive. She could be raised to be anything that he wanted, and she would not leave him for his habits. In her eyes and her mother's eyes, he was her ticket out of what was happening to her and her family. She could be rich and happy with an educated man whom seemed to have it all. She didn't want to do it. Her mother forced her into it, and she accepted, and they got married. She was indeed and beautiful bride. She was too good for him. Her name was Soraya. His name was Hamid. This is where the rest of their life and her problems began.

February 21st, 2010 - Introduction to the story about a life -

I have no idea how I got here, I dont know where I am going, I only know where I came from, and what has happened to me so far. I can't give any reason to why the things that happened to me happened. I can only explain them to you. All judgements must be kept private. It always has felt like an end to me. I feel like a living dead. I'm waiting for a miracle to change my life around. Anything I do, anything I try to do, turns into nothing but failure. What I'm going to tell you is a story about two families that were dysfuctional from the biggening, a marriage that was meant to fail from the start, three children that were born to be alone in the world. It's about an immigration that began with problems, and the remainings of a few broken hearted people that got seperated as time went on. It's about love, fights and deception. It's about power and money, and how wanting to gain such things with the wrong intentions, can destroy even the closest things you have to you. It's about sex, drugs and wrong perseptions.
Everyday, you'll ready a little bit...
Just stay tuned an read...
What you will read is a true story, it happened to me, and it will shock you.